Monday, November 15, 2010

Six Years...

Six long years.

Today marks the anniversary of when I started at the company I'm at. I've managed to move up to the highest position, right under the boss. Manage the office and supervise the employees.

I should be thrilled. Six years is a big achievement in this non-committal world we live in. Jobs, marriage, children, church - these things seemed to be put on the back burner.

But, this is how I'm feeling right now.

If you're looking for a good post, don't read any further. It goes downhill from here.

Cry is what I'd rather do. I am overworked and underpaid. That is a no brainer. I sit at a desk 40 hours a week and my creative mind is about to go nuts.

About 4 years ago, I was ready to make a change. I prayed about it and felt the "go ahead". But, fear got ahold of me and I decided to just hang on for a little while longer... six years later I regret not trusting my decision and God's "ok".

So, now I'm waiting on God again, to help me make a big decision. A big scary one.

This is not a great post but I needed to vent.


Becky said...

Do I detect that perhaps you're looking at taking a big leap of faith? Switching gears and/or careers?

The Daily Bee said...

Yes! I'm hoping...

Jenster said...

Good that you got this now! I'm 45 and I just figured this out in the last couple of years. A creative person does not belong in an administrative-type position. It's stifling and not using the gifts God gave us.