C'mon Already...

This needs to happen soon...

 Or this...

 With one of these (non-alcho of course, because don't drink)

 Or else I'm going to look like this... any day now.

Until then, trying to keep my sanity and just deal with it. 

Six Years...

Six long years.

Today marks the anniversary of when I started at the company I'm at. I've managed to move up to the highest position, right under the boss. Manage the office and supervise the employees.

I should be thrilled. Six years is a big achievement in this non-committal world we live in. Jobs, marriage, children, church - these things seemed to be put on the back burner.

But, this is how I'm feeling right now.

If you're looking for a good post, don't read any further. It goes downhill from here.

Cry is what I'd rather do. I am overworked and underpaid. That is a no brainer. I sit at a desk 40 hours a week and my creative mind is about to go nuts.

About 4 years ago, I was ready to make a change. I prayed about it and felt the "go ahead". But, fear got ahold of me and I decided to just hang on for a little while longer... six years later I regret not trusting my decision and God's "ok".

So, now I'm waiting on God again, to help me make a big decision. A big scary one.

This is not a great post but I needed to vent.



Christmas Gifts and A Milestone

Christmas Gifts and A Milestone?
I was just too lazy to write two post, so I meshed both in one.

Let's talk about the Milestone first.

As of November 8th, I have been blogging for four-long-years. It seems so much longer, but that's it. Four years. I've pretty much lost all blog readers, I'm sure, but I've kept on because I like to look back and see what I've been up to, how I've matured, what I dealt with on that same day and who was important to me at that time.

Happy Birthday, Daily Bee.

Now onto the second topic - Christmas Gifts.

I've already purchased my first gift, for my nephew Cristian. I've been scouring stuff for everyone else, but I just keep coming up with stuff for Rylie Drew. Poor spoiled child.

Here is what I've listed so far and plan on purchasing for her...

 Rylie is 3 1/2 months old and she has more toys than I'm sure a normal 3 1/2 months old has. She is one smart kid and already obsessed with her toys. She loves music, movies and loves to watch cartoons on her Daddy's iPhone. She has little stuffed friends that have been named and she talks to them all.day.long. So, this little gadget is one thing that I will be getting for her.

 Handmade dolls on Etsy

Sources: Left / Right

 Handmade Tuxedo Dress (love)

Sources: Left / Right

Vintage Owls and Shabby Chic Pillow Covers

Sources: Left / Right

The last wasn't meant for Rylie, obviously. I can use my blog as a hint source too... so hint hint. ;)

Pain, Pain go away...

I'm not sure if I mentioned this, but pain has become my new "friend". Or enemy.

I've dealt with sciatica, lower back pain, and neck pain for years due to my job. I sit 99% of the day and it takes a toll on me. It got to the point where I needed to treat it and went to the doctors and was told to start Physical Therapy.

One week later, I got hit by a car. Girl tried to cut me off and pass the bus and slammed into me instead. Car was fine, I was shookened up because this was my first car accident with me driving. I felt fine, just nervous and went home.

That night I was in so much pain, felt like someone had beaten me with a cement block.

I went to the doctors to be evaluated and was told to do some exercises and just go to Physical therapy.

I did just that, for three (long) weeks and cried, for three (long) weeks.

Finally, after it was done and the physical therapist said that I need more treatment so go back to my doctor, my doctor sent me to a pain and wellness center.

I thought, more money, more pain medications, more missing work... oy.

I had my first visit there today and let me tell you, I am one happy girl.

First off, my docs office in Newport is swanky. But this office, was swankier. Seriously know how to do it, by the ocean, sea breeze. Nice. I felt like I under dressed, needed some heels and a cocktail dress. lol

I expected them to hurt me, push and probe and I was wrong. I got a massage. A massage... won-der-ful. I haven't felt this good in weeks and weeks.

This is going to do the trick... I know it and I can't wait to get off the loopy meds and be myself again... no more tear fest and irritable Deb. I'm sure the whole household will breathe a sigh of relief when it's done. I know I will.

Looking forward and ready to say "ta ta" to pain.

Props Props Props

I've been very focused on my Photography for the past few weeks. Huge blessing rolling in and I'm am booked for November. Booked booked booked. And it feel so good I could just jump up and down... but I'd probably hurt myself and my pain management doc would probably shoot me. So I'll just smile, really big.

I purchased the below props today on Etsy and I absolutely adore them.

This little guy is going to help me when I have kids in the session... so cute and it's a bee! Love it.