I've had a really interesting past two weeks. We did my sister's bridal shower on Friday night, Girls night out on Saturday night and her last service at church on Sunday. A little overwhelming for my heart. Everyday I think, "
This is my sister's last Saturday night here", "This is our last time going to church together"... so many changes about to take place. I won't even try to fake it and say,
"I'm fine". I've been a wreck. A big bawling baby. How else should I feel? My best friend and the closest person to me is moving 2000 thousand miles away. Being a creature of habit, I feel horrible and a little lost.
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Any change, even a change for the better, is always accompanied by drawbacks and discomforts.
- Arnold Bennett
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My standard answer to,
"Oh, poor Deborah. What are you going to do?" is
"I'll survive". I smile and walk away as quickly as possible. The second thing I've heard,
"So Deborah, you're next". I'm next? My answer to them is,
"No. Don't want to be." I smile and walk away again while they look shocked. =)
If you were a fly on the wall with my sister and I you would find us arguing and fighting 85% of the time and laughing and carrying on the rest of the time. That's what sisters do. You'd think I'd want the separation but that's not the case.
If it were up to me, I'd tie her down or find a way to give her the biggest guilt trip.
lol But I can't find a way and I know that neither of those would work in the end because life goes on. I can't stop it and to tell you the truth, life would be miserable if it listened to me. ;)
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God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change...
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So, there you have it. A little insight into my dealings with changes. Get ready because I can
guarantee this will be harder next week and I'll probably use you as a soundboard! Whether you like it or not... ;)
